'i kick it like adidas, flowin sticky like adhesive'

well, after a good night at work and a long week of reality, i'm treating myself to jim beam and quesadilla's. it's so simple and, like the jelly belly bean splurge of the other night, so perfect.

tonight, i've decided to thought bubble. i'm not sure exactly what that means either...but basically, this blog will be a whole mesh of thoughts...separated by double colons. (so basically...leave NOW if you don't feel like being subjected to TONS of randomness...)

tomorrow, packing food for haiti with the kid::i still need to submit references for the magazine i'm applying to be a volunteer photographer with::how did i forget to START the car but still managed to put it into reverse and roll down a hill, while assuming i had started it? thank goodness for bff's who yell...'hey retard! you need to TURN THE KEY!::i love job's where i make 20 an hour in cash, plus a minimum hourly...but, could i turn that into a business? with a poofy dress, an apron and a tray, could i 'host' private parties? i had an opportunity to do just that but couldn't make it work, schedule-wise. this economy could really benefit me in that sort of a venture. people aren't renting larger spaces as much, so staying in, with a 'host' coming to them, could really work...can i be that motivated? i would have LOVED a host at SO many of my parties. i have people willing to come aboard with me already::why, when you put too much lime away into a dishwasher, why does it bubble out the sides and ALL over your floor? i hope i didn't destroy the floor...::i'm so sick of being yelled at. i am ready to be done with fights. there's only been two, but it's been two too many...eye-to-eye is so much better::dang...my quesadilla is gone::i wonder where my boy bff is? he's totally m.i.a.::i gotta do more work on my kid's girl scout website...that's my role in her troop and i'm slackin::i feel really bad, that in my last blog, i called that camera stupid. it's SO not. it's a 1978, polaroid 600 series. i only called it stupid due to a fight i was in. it's not though. polaroid is stupid for not making the 600 film anymore. that camera, and the two bucks i spent on it--completely worth it and totally NOT stupid. someday, fuji, or an independent market, will pick up film production and i'll be ready. fuji makes film compatible with older model polaroids so it'll get there. the camera i got was a great buy. it's beautiful, and shiny and fully functional--flash and all::what the hell am i doing in life? chasing dreams? probably...but why do i feel like i can?::i love the new b.o.b song, magic, but i LOVE it SO much more now that i know the weezer front man sings the chorus::i heard my old high school crush, the one i just ran into, is a total douche bag. i heard that because i e-stalked him, found a mutual acquaintance (my bff) and inquired (while trying NOT to be completely creepy for inquiring about her co-worker's, ex). he's SO cute still though...ass outweighs cute though any day::why do i feel like i'm the most mentally stable one lately? i'm so sick of dealing with insanity! it makes me insane too! i happen to be quite chameleon-esque; so, when i have all the crazy in my life, i feel it too. when i'm away, as i like to be lately, with my family, i feel functional. there's no room for crazy when you have a fishing pole in hand::i'm not sure what that last thought meant either, but eureka's a great show::that sounded crazy didn't it?::yep. it did. but that show is darn good::

ok. i feel better now. i'm not sure any of that made much sense, but darnit, i feel better.