i'll miss you seasonal 75% off seasonal clearance...i'll be back

(red shoes. the last clearance item i plan to purchase until my equipment is paid off...)

so my massive purchase...well, it all started last week.

i was home, alone, and feeling lonely and sorry for myself. so, along with the food that was keeping me company, i decided to shop. i typed in amazon.com and searched for camera lenses.

i found the one i wanted: 550.00.
then i needed the hood and filter: 45.00.
next i looked for a new tripod, strictly out of curiosity, and i accidentally found one i loved...that and the quick release plate: 130.00.
then, after deciding that if i was going to purchase these things, i might as well order the new battery i needed along with the memory card: 60.00.
and then i was like...wow, i have nothing to carry this stuff in so i added on a backpack made for my camera and accessories: 40.00.
with all the shipping and handling...almost 900.00.
(this could be made into the photographers edition of if you give a mouse a cookie btw...)

i sat on the order until monday morning. see, i had thought a lot about it and then, on sunday night, i had this dream that finally talked me into it...i crashed into a 1950's collector car and thought to myself...damn, now i can't justify that big purchase. then, i woke up, realized that i didn't really do that, rolled over and clicked 'buy now.'

this is a huge purchase for me. the third biggest i've made in my life...right behind my two vehicles. i need to spend money to make money right...? i KNOW this was a sound investment for me but it's hard to know how much i just spent without feeling a little nauseous. at the same time...I AM SO EXCITED! i am getting what i need...remember when i mentioned that seven-year plan i have? yeah, well i need to start somewhere--and a crappy tripod with small, standard lens will not get me there... plus, will i ever really have the money to do this?

i have sworn off eating out at lunch, bottles of wine, random clearance items, store-bought coffee, junk food crap from the vending machine...including twix...and anything else that would only benefit me. it's gonna suck, but it will only be like this until it's all paid off.

if anyone wants to buy me a candy bar, it would be greatly appreciated though...